customary banter

So the new year is approaching and in less than 9 hours I will have survived through another decade. this year has definitely been one of the more dismal years of my 27 year existence. i didn't accomplish anything, i didn't find my career, and i didn't save a dime. i could absolutely scratch 2009 from my memory and have no desire to ever look back. this coming year will be a bit different. i am going to try to let my ocd kick in and allow myself to get back into shape. with that said here are a few rezzys that i will try and stick by for 2010.

1. I will refrain from using any bad word that starts with a 'c'
2. I will work out four times a week no matter what.
3. I will learn to make macaroons.
4. I will spend more time with my parents.
5. I will spend more time with my friends and visit them when they ask me to.
6. I will go to the U.K no matter what.
7. I will not accept any job that is less than what i deserve.


These things are rather trivial in the grand scheme of things, but then again I have never been one to make grandiose resolutions with no plan or follow through. I am thankful for the dear things that have happened to me this year as well as the fact that everyone I love and care about remained safe and sheltered this year regardless of what difficult times we live in. goodbye 2009.

gaga

i had so much fun at the gaga show, i love that a man wearing a red patent leather thong and a top hat hollowed out with a lit up bird cage was in the crowd dancing his ass off in the same crowd where a man in his early seventies was snapping his fingers and smiling ear to ear. only in la? or only at a gaga show? i was finally able to debut my marc jacobs dress that I had been hiding out in my closet for months with no where to wear it to:



unfortunately i have no photos to remind myself of the evening as i forgot it at home, but i suppose it was for the best because typically having a camera makes me live outside of the moment and i never truly relax and just watch. thanks to amanda for taking me and working for interscope so that my ass got in for free!

the horrors again

scarlet fields song of the month for sure. on repeat.repeat. repeat. also worth mentioning, this song is AMAZING live, and is amazing to listen to by yourself. so do it.

back on point

innocently

i still have a crush on you. i think it's the abundant amount of nostalgia.

i only think of you.

if i could make whoever reads this blog listen to this song i would. think of this link as a virtual do or die.

vanity/insanity

it's christmas in the apartment y'all...

come winter.

So yesterday as I was walking to work I lit up a cigarette and put my ipod on and David Bowie's cover of 'Waiting for the Man' dazzled my ear drums for the four minute journey. It's amazing how something so small like listening to my ipod would make my walk to work seem so much more important, but it truly made me feel like I was walking into a music video. Now I am sure to the average reader this might seem mundane and probably downright snoozefest, but I happen to live on a rather magical street I assure you and the journey was far from vanilla.

goodbye fall.

if i just...

listened to the sounds people make when they eat i would be the skinniest person in the world. listening to the sounds of food digesting, foods swish swashing around the mouth and the look of peoples faces as they open up to take in an insane amount of food is quite possibly enough for me to become anorexic on the spot.

with the desire of a new job.

comes the desire of something else...and i am going to get control of what has been neglected for so long. no more lack of control, desire overcome by temptation. i'm going all out, no stopping, watch out, get out of the way....i'm over the mundane, i'm ready to come back.

king chump

the award of my lifetime.

rest in peace

today the world lost one of the greatest dogs to ever exist. bentley our beloved family yorkie had his final bark tonight around 6:30 pm. This has been one of the hardest losses I have had in my life and I can't imagine how I can ever forget the spirit that bentley had and the love he gave to everyone that knew him. bentley, your zest for life while dealing with your heart failure the past two years was something I will never forget. So much heart for such a little dog. i love you now and always.

my little frenchman

my new favorite place.

oh karl.

if this video doesn't inspire you, nothing will.

hooray!

our new settee! I passed on the anthro couch as it was much too white for the rest of our furniture, but this one fits just perfectly with the rest of our things.

networking is for losers

title pretty much says it all...

unlimited thoughts.

i can't begin to say how much i need a vacation right about now. i think that it would do myself some good as well as the people that are in my life. i am constantly on the move lately, and it's really hard to get the whole house situation going when i hardly have the money to furnish it as well as hardly have the time to go bargain searching. therefore a lot of my furniture hunting has been done via craigslist as well as ebay. as a result i found a couch that i was planning on dropping 3000 on for a mere 400 bucks. not to mention a fantastic settee from anthro that is still pending however i am pretty sure i can't let this baby go! it's in perfect condition and it is absolutely my taste. the place is also in desperate need of some color! for example one look at my kitchen it seems to scream drab!


i am not sure exactly what it needs but i am sure some sort of yellow or soft green would be right up my alley.

the anthro couch i have my eye on is so beauts it's hardly fair to sit on it,


i would love to just look at it and perhaps every once in a while use it while i read a book or look out through the window.

facebook reunion

wow, i have found my entire childhood on facebook this week. it's so weird to find photos of yourself that have been on facebook for literally months that you knew nothing about....

it really makes me think differently about life. fb is so much better than myspace in so many different ways. myspace is such a downer while fb makes me involved in all of my past/present friends lives without making me feel awkward or left without anything to talk about.

umm, wow,

Just what I have been waiting for! I'm sure every woman in the world will be jumping to their computers to order one of these. the innuendo is hardly vague.

busybee

i have been so busy moving into the new place the past two weeks i haven't had much time to do anything else. trying to find furniture that I am crazy about that is also in my price range is also really difficult as well. anyway, here are a few photos of the place so far...

im obsessed...

decorpad.com get into it.

sometimes she's a friend of mine.

tori amos was amazing last night, I cried as usual. Tear in your hand came on and I grabbed davey's leg and lost it. Something about that song just brings me to tears, even after all these years. She looked beautiful as always, and the night couldn't have been more perfect.

I can't stop listening to the new horrors album. I don't care what anyone has to say about them, they are soo good. This album does what I think Interpol had only hoped to pull off with ripping off joy division and trying to claim their music as something new. If bands would just own up to their biting i think they would actually get more respect. And for the record, I really do like Interpol.

'Why yes, I did listen to unknown pleasures several hundred times prior to making this album, but I made it because most of todays music is crap and let's face it nothing is ever going to be as good as the old stuff so let's just try to emulate it right?'

at least I think that's how it should go anyway.

Davey and I are moving next saturday, I will miss my parents loads, but it is for the best that we make our move. I feel like my life is going to be completely different in only a few days time. I'm part nervous, and also part excited.

will someone please...

buy me or shab a fennec fox? PLEASE???



the best part is the cats would have no problem adapting:

brightblack morning light

makes me feel like i am perhaps a hippy to say such a thing, but i honestly am so into it right now. the song 'opressions each' is really making my evening right now....

the 4th was filled with a lot of fun and one amazing slice of peach pie. Davey and I loved watching the fireworks and eating as much vegan chicken salad as possible.

for amazing laughter.

read this bruno/sascha cohen interview. best laugh i have had in years.

http://men.style.com/gq/features/landing?id=content_9557

instant karma

can someone please explain to me why yoko ono is needle pointing blind folded during the instant karma music video?

it don't get better than this truly...

why can i watch this video 30 times and it never gets old????

peter murphy

was incredible tonight! thank you to polly once again for being an awesome friend and getting davey, shab and I in! when i got home tonight i had some serious loving from the beauts after an unfortunate incounter this afternoon where she decided to cut my arm open!

spring/summer cleaning.

You know those people that cling on to wrappers, gift bows, receipts, clothes that are too small but hold sentimental value, or things that perhaps mean nothing now but at some point in their life they were really special?

well, I am a self proclaimed sentimental pack rat. I keep everything. Even things from people that I can't stand. For example, Christmas 2004 I received a shadowbox made especially for me by an ex boyfriend of mine. The shadow box was made up of all kinds of things, photographs, nail polish, 'homies', razorblades, hello kitty, etc...the thought of it was really sweet and the final product was really special. The thing is I have no idea what to do with it now. I am no longer with that person and now I have this shadowbox that I neither display nor throw away. I just leave it in my closet. Same person made me a hello kitty painting for my birthday but I don't dare have it displayed. I still love hello kitty, just not him...so what do I do???

clothes that my deceased nana bought for me, blankets from my childhood, birthday cards, video tapes, emails, postcards, photographs, letters, notes from class, empty make up containers that are packaged really well, perfume bottles that are empty but still look cute, books, books and more books, JEWELRY of all kinds. costume jewelry, cocktail rings, tea cups from anthropologie, antique soap dishes, random fabric swatches that I swear I will use for fabric on my chairs....the list goes on.


I am in terrible need of someone to help lift me from my attachments to objects.

when it's time to party we will party hard.

cause behind every myspace quote there is a story.

Saturday Night Live - Chandeliers

rescue beauty lounge

makes the best nail polish colors ever. I love the OPI french collection and the color 'recycle' by china glaze they are also included in my list of my favorites. i have been on a matte nail polish kick and this week I have added the following to my nail collection:

john goodman

one of my favorite people in this world.

shab

you are the best friend i could ever ask for. i have been thinking about our friendship over the past hour and how much I am so lucky to have you as a friend. I know I am not the most emotional person and the idea of me conveying any kind of emotion toward another human being besides apathy is an idea that has become quite scary for a person like me. I can honestly say that I am so thankful to have you as a best friend. I have only had one other friend like you in my life and our friendship reminds me very much of one that meant so much to me. you are my sister, and I am so thankful that I was given a friendship in my life that I so clearly needed.

you probably won't read this because you will be too busy ebaying your little persian fingers to the bone searching for ysl tribute shoes, cleaning out your old model united nations awards/pamphlets/handouts, or listening to some softcell circa 1982 songs on your ipod while trying to figure out how to kick-start our idea of 'Retail!: The Musical'

Regardless if you read this or not I suppose this is my way of coping with all of the things you have done for me the past couple of weeks and the constant emotional support you provide on an everyday basis. You know I couldn't say this to your face because for me this would require too much emotion and feelings. I suppose it's a lot easier for me to know how to piss you off and get you to snap at me for mistaking arab women for persians, and for telling you that I really am not crazy about the latest chloe boots.

love you shabnam.

chanel cruise 09

i finally bought my favorite purse of the season. The chanel cruise '09 line is amazing and I couldn't stop myself from purchasing this for my spring bag collection this year:



the color blue is phenomenal. the option to wear it with one strap or two is also a dead giveaway to the fact that it is going to be extremely functional while I am traveling this summer. I am not sure if karl had any say in the color choices for the bags for this collection but honestly the color in person is so unique and beautiful. Here is a photo taken from my mac, I dont think it gives the bag justice.I also look kind of nuts:

who cares about susan boyle..

tori amos tour

7/17/2009
Los Angeles, CA
Greek Theater

ewf forevs.

volver

today i felt the old me beginning to return. the old me that isn't so apathetic. it is nice to feel impacted by someone else's smile or a casual compliment from someone out of the ordinary. it isn't everyday that i get to feel this way but it reminds me of a time in my life that everyday was like a holiday and my joie de vivre is really something to smile about.

everything is hair bows and kittens on my end.

i have been on an antony and the johnsons kick lately and this song has been stuck in my head all day long. whilst perusing through the youtube videos i found this fan video of this boy that i think is so adorable! here is a cute video as well as one of my most favorite antony songs ever!

beauts' poker face.

Bea Arthur, another hero of mine gone.

today one of the most influential women in my life has passed. Bea Arthur died today due to cancer and I couldn't be more upset about this loss. Bea Arthur was one of those women that people either misunderstood or someone that they completely loved. For me at least I absolutely loved and idolized her. She was the epitome of everything I loved about strong women. She will forever be someone I look up to and aspire to be. I love you Bea!

new phots.

the latest shoot is up on royale's myspace page but here are a couple of photos from last week. all of these were taken on a rooftop in downtown la. photos by sean stiegemeier makeup by me.

only the best lyrics will do

While watching yet another shark movie tonight the films ending credits were really not to be missed...that is due strongly to the fact that LL Cool J really has a way with words. See below:

"Deepest Bluest (Shark's Fin)" -LL Cool J

Uh, my hat is like a shark's fin

[1] - Deepest, bluest, my hat is like a shark's fin

[Repeat 1 (5x)]

Manmade terror
Hungry jaws of death
Y'all don't cross my depths
I'll pause your breaths
I cause you to sink down forty thousand leagues
Bleeding to death with no arms and short sleeves
My world's deep blue
Killers gotta eat too
Looking for human flesh to rip my teeth through
Other fish in the sea but Barracudas ain't equal
To a half human predator created by a needle
Jet black eyes baby they stare while you sleep
When your Titanic sinks I'm the one you gon' meet
Hearing terrified screams they surround my team
All you see is trails of blood
Even God won't intervene
Nightmares of darkness
My apetite is heartless
Even if we related, you eliminated regardless
In the deep blue, underwater walls
Half man, half shark
My jaws don't fall

[Repeat 1 (8x)]

Our Father who art in Heaven
Hallowed be Thy name
Killers sworn to beast
Swallowed them in flames
They switched my DNA
Trip me into Cool J
I can't fight the feeling
I'm born to kill prey
To survive an attack
There's only one way
Battle to the death
That's how sharks play
Weapons left behind
We dueling with the mind
You blind, crippled, or crazy
You're real easy to find
Struggling to flow with hemorrhages in your throat
Getting the lap dance while I smash through your boat
Eat your whole fam
Nothing left but a right hand
Clinging to a rail
Escape, attempts fail
You'll never make it home
Tear the flesh off your bone
Walking in undercurrents is a dangerous zone
I'm talking death out a moment's notice
You wasn't focused
Me and my crew strike
Like some underwater locusts

[Repeat 1 (8x)]

Uh, uh take it deeper
Uh, uh take it deeper
Uh, uh take it deeper
Uh, uh take it deeper

These waters are waist level
The hallway's flooded
Lost your scuba gear
The killer's cold-blooded
His name's LL
You don't really want it
I ate your ancestors
The ocean is haunted
I'm closing in cause I'm supposed to win
How the cold steel feel when it froze your chin
Should of stayed on dry land
Stroke while you can
Cause now you under pressure in the land of the damned
Abandoned pirate ships
Eels and sod scum
Fish that glow in the dark
The Titanic's hub
Underwater storms
You're blood is so warm
You're life vest is off
And that turns me on
Killer for centuries
The Gotti of the deep
In the next millennium
I'm still gonna creep
Sand under my belly, ocean over my head
Through the light in the shadows
You become the living dead


yes, it's true. I couldn't even believe it myself. Davey and I are still laughing about the line "Getting the lap dance while I smash through your boat Eat your whole fam Nothing left but a right hand"

never too old...

perusing through google often produces a detrimental truth that one day i will have to face.

how old is too old for hello kitty?

i for one don't see that day coming anytime soon, and i fear that my desire for her has remained throughout the vast majority of my life.

when i was a child my parents would give me a $100 dollar bill to spend at the sanrio store. it wasn't always hello kitty that i loved i had a few favorites that i frequently liked to grace my three ring binders and plastic pencil cases:

1. little twin stars
2. kero-kero-keroppi
3. pippo
4. my melody

i wonder when the attachment will end, when will i be able to place my car keys on the key rack without having a giant fluffy cat face to identify my keys from the otherwise boring and dull counterparts?

birthday cake remix

ahhh the wonders of birthday cake flavored ice cream! i have been eating birthday cake remix for years ever since my best friend took me to a coldstone back in 2003 to show me her favorite mix. i have tried to get as many people into it as possible throughout the years and have only managed to turn a few people to this delicious treat! i haven't had it for a while but tonight the mood striked and i am pleased to announce that the ice cream never gets old! i feel like a kid every time i take my first bite!

i'm a dumbass.

more self inflicted injuries a-comin' your way....this time i ran into a table!

chunky monkey

happy easter y'all.




zachariah's chunky monkey dance in celebration of the easter festivities!



the lyrical genius of zachariah:

Chunky monkey he cacas on the ranch
Chunky monkey he cacas on the branch
Chunky monkey he pee pees on his hands
Chunky monkey he cacas on the branch
Chunky monkey he pee pees on the cell phone
Chunky monkey he pee pees on the owl
Chunky monkey he pee pees in his face
Chunky monkey he cacas on his face
Chunky monkey he pee pees on the face yaw!

easter bread!

davey and i tried to make easter bread tonight as a trial run for sundays festivities. i'd say for a first time run through we did pretty well. i say that because:
1. we didn't burn the house down
2. the bread was actually edible.

here are some photos of our easter bread




while waiting for the yeast to rise i pulled out my old keyboard and plunked down some keys. i am so bad i had to record myself to believe how truly rusty i am. take a look.

louis wain

i have been listening to current 93 for a while now but i never realized that louis wain did the artwork for the cover of 'thunder perfect mind' it should have been quite obvious with the cat and a bow tie but i suppose that was too logical for me to figure out....anyway it turns out that louis wain is possibly the greatest human being to ever exist. the reasoning behind this notion is the fact that he drew cats. here are a few examples of his artwork: