tori amos

you still bring me to tears. 

cooling.

iieee.

little earthquakes.

lethal combo

time

today was my first day away from work in six days. i go back tomorrow and i can't say i am very thrilled about it. i feel like i am unable to focus on anything these days, work is consuming me and i am afraid that i am not living up to my full potential. it's almost like i am moving backwards and i am watching the "better" me pass me by.  i have no time to focus on my academics, and getting time off is almost as difficult as my classes.  i don't do well with school and work, and i know that a lot of people must suffer through it and do both.  i don't feel very respected at my job and i find myself speaking differently and acting differently as well so as not to be a nuisance.  i am fine with people not understanding or even enjoying my personality, but i am not fine with me compromising it.  i am losing time.  it's 2008, i am 25 and i still don't know what i want to do with my life.  what did i go to school for if not to be a success? time keeps slipping by and i keep getting more wrinkles.

when it's time to go back to work

work tomorrow. don't want to go now.....

bronchitis, pneumonia and drugs oh my

sooooo basically i am sicker than shit and am drugged up out of my mind. i have a combo of bronchitis and pneumonia going on in my lungs.....this is what NOT SMOKING gets me? I am on a cocktail of: 

promethazine

ibuprofen

azithromycin

methylprednisolone

a "freeair" inhaler

and albuterol sulfate

i have been out of work this week, and the next few days are not looking very promising. Davey gets back from tour on saturday and he hasn't even called me today to see how i am doing.  I want to be in a coma state of mind...my Doctor wanted to give me some kind of shot in my bum that would cause some kind of stinging sensation... needless to say i declined.  If anyone wants any germs come visit me otherwise i'm out for the next few days.