goodbye summer

As I watch each day grow closer to Fall, I am thankful that I was able to get through this daunting summer. It was easily the worst of the lot and without a doubt a daily internal struggle. The strength and courage of my mind knows no bounds, but my heart is infantile and naive. The numb feeling you get when you realize the world you dreamt of as a child is as cotton candy and peter pan and its staring players are the monsters that you feared.

the most consuming depression of them all. the days go by like weeks and i am sitting here with my feet on the ground ready to run. we have no where to turn to in times like these, we wait and we wilt. i can't seem to wrap my mind around the feet in the sky and the twirl in your cheek when you smile. i smile too. it is sharp and it is forced, but it's there and it's mine. doors shut more often than they open and the eternal optimist hands me a flag to pass go.