Sunday will be my first day to go wedding shopping and I am dreading it more than I am looking forward to the results. First of all, I am in limbo with my hair so I feel very unsure of myself in general let alone sure of making decisions of what I want to wear when I get married. I also don't like the fact that David won't be there with me when I try on my dress because I shop with him more than I do my best girlfriends and he has wonderful taste in clothing. It seems weird to be making a big decision without him because I have had him with me on each one the past five years.
On a different note, I know I want to dye my hair back to dark. I feel so foolish ruining my hair by stripping it out and turning my hair into a scraggly pony tail filled with hay. I suppose you live and learn...I just wish my hair didn't have to be the sacrifice. I am thinking about beginning a new blog that will transition me from this blog into my family blog. I plan on having children very soon after the wedding and I want to keep everything documented so that it will always be accessible to look at.
I am embarrassed of 90% of the things I have written on this blog and I think I will ultimately want to walk away from it all together because I feel like a child when I re-read through some of the entries. Life is silly, and it is time for me grow up and drop petty ideas and focus on the things that really make me happy.
I passed all three subtests of the CSET and the written exam so I am free to student teach as soon as possible. I can't wait to have a real job doing something I love. I can't even fathom how amazing it will be to engage in an activity that doesn't require customer service or helping people with makeup.
